Friday, September 2, 2011

FUCKING PATHETIC!

you are just man who are never satisfied with your life... you are just sweet in words..such a sad..you are a loser...you make me feel like an animal..damm idiot!!!!seriously you are pathetic!!!!you are someone who will never appreciated someone's sacrifice!!!!!!!just finish!!!

Sunday, August 28, 2011

The LOVE Letter

  I thought you're not receive my letter ..cz i don't get any feedback from you.. I thought the postman have sent the letter to the wrong adresses..That is what makes me worry to think about...yah..it's been a week i've lost you.I don't know what,where and why!!! Today, i've try to reach you, and you've answer my call, thats good enough fr me.. but sorry.. i put it down cz i'm scared i'll be cryn' when i'm talking to you..sorry.. 


  And about 20minutes ago i guess, he updated something which makes me feel relieve and glad.. Well at least he feel somethg than none aite... It's hard to make a decision being with you.. cz you are someone who's hard to predict that i can't do or act somethg based on lust or emotion.. I'm still waiting as long i'm using my mind to think positively.. I trust you,i trust you well.. I'm sure you are not did somethg bad behind me.. MARK my words Bienjie.. I TRUST YOU sayang .. I LOVE YOU.. 

P/S : THE CARD IS SINCERELY MADE BY ME..I'M SO SORRY IF IT'S NOT PERFECT AS WELL. I MADE IT BY MYSELF AS A SIGN HOW SINCERE MYLOVE TOWARDS YOU BIENJIE ASYRAF DAMIEN. I HEART YOU SAYANG.

Friday, August 26, 2011

WANTED.

   Lately i've been thinking about what i can do.. I've been stressing to fall back in love with you.. I'm so sorry that i couldn't follow through..but i can't go on this way,i've gotta stop it babe!!You've been wonderfull in all that you can be..but it hurts me when you say that you understand me..So believe me, i'm sorry..I am sorry >.<


  I wanted you to be there when i fall,I wanted you to see me through it all,I wanted you to be the one i love,I wanted you to hold me in my sleep,I wanted you to show me what i need,I wanted you to know how down deep i wanted you..
I've been pushing hard to open up the door trying to take us back to where we were before..but i'm done! I just can't do this anymore..cz we can't be mended, so let's stop this pretending now.We've been walking around in circles for some time,and i think we should head for the finish line..So believe me, I,I am sorry..I'm sorry.

I'm sorry baby,but i...i gotta pack up and leave!... But i...i'll always remember how we came closed to being how i wanted to be..I wanted you baby..i wanted you...

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Where The Hell You Gone??





I don't know where the hell he gone..Me text and tryin' to reach him since 20 August 2011 till today,but still no answer..How can i stay calm?? I miss you so much.. I'm still and keep waiting fr your call and text.. Sometimes i think i am a bad companion to be with.. You know how lonely i am without you.. Whenever i'm going out , i saw a boy and a girl were sitting next together,they laughing,they smiling to each other,they were kiss on cheek.. DAMM , i got jealous seriously jealous.. I've been thinking when i can have all that.. Yah maybe not fr now cz i'm still young and i don't give a damm!!! But you, i don't think you are tryin' to love me well..and you are not tryin' to gave me your love.. But i don't care cz i know my heart is addicted to you and i'll be waitg and patient of what we've been trough.. You're gone along with my bestfriend and my friend...Where are you?Where are you? I think i should let you go..



She's Wonderfull

  I thank her for accept me for who i am..For always give me strenght to live up my life, advicing me without met BORE, She kept telling me for never give up ,never surrender.. Well ,i think she's the best teacher... Everything that happens in her life effects me too which its teach me how to live up mylife in the future with new people and how to manage a relationship... The way she think, i can absolutely  absorb... Well some people would think bad about her , but that is their right but also it was a mistake for did that..because they are judging by looking appearance which is not the best way.. And i'm glad that i can get to know how she is and her heart well :)


These some from her for me :))

She makes me smile :)





Thank you Jaja <3<3
I can no other answer make,but...
THANKSS...THANKSS






Monday, August 22, 2011

This is LIFE.

                                  
                   
Life defines in Metabolism,
In reproduction,
we make our miniature selves,
our look alike
In the power of adaptation,
like what is in now,
What is fashionable,
how I blend with all of you
How I mimic you,
how I become a clown to you,

Life in being nice
This is my life A short and a merry one
This my life In the middle of my own life
To life,
a life,
in the hope of discovering the meaning of my life,
My speech my poetry
Come to life with me
To the life,
for the life of one like me,
Not taking this life in my own hands,
Never,
never,
To life,
this is life
As big as life
as large as life is large
In resiliency,
in elasticity
Animations, cartooning, animate,
I vivify
I vilify
I quicken
I liken
The life force in my life’s functions
Drawn from life
to life drawn
Dream to life a life full of dreams
This liveliness, this sparkle
This effervescence of life,
this bubbling life like wine
This sprightliness like soft
Drink like energy drinks
This verve,
this vigor
this vivacity
Of life to life as big as life
My life
This is my life
This me I am life
I am energy
i am in this poem trying to run
away from everything in my life,
running in life
to life and life,
because of life,
for life. 

hehee..For Fun


Thursday, August 18, 2011

This is the best VD i've ever watch :)

ohsemmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!

Just stay strong



persevering we must remember that anyone can give up when faced with hardship, that is the easiest way out of any situation. Life is full of Staying strong is one of the hardest things we must do in life. When we are adversity and challenges; they are the part of the journey towards our dreams that shape us into who we are. Don't be overcome by the thought of not being able to conquer the obstacles in your path and just turn around. 

You must overcome these obstacles for doing so will give you strength, and will only add to your bank of courage and confidence for future endeavors. Just stay strong! Never let anything deter you from the path that you know in your heart is the path that you should be taking, but instead embrace the idea of a challenge or obstacle in your way that you must overcome because the benefits of overcoming what is in your way are far greater than the benefits of just giving up!

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

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Monday, August 15, 2011

Feelings Fade And People Change




Little do we realize when we are in the moments that we cherish deeply that the people we are sharing these great moments with might not be around us for the rest of our lives. It is in our nature to be resistant to change and to want things to stay the same. It is too bad that change is inevitable, and sometimes the feelings that we might have felt for someone or the feelings they might have felt for us may go away. 

And sometimes the people who we may think will be in our lives forever become distant memories of our past. Do not fret. Feelings fading, and people changing is a part of life, and if you are growing as a person, not everyone will grow with you. It is important not to forget your past, learn from it, and use this wisdom to choose the people who will surround you in the future!


What is happening to US??




  I miss the old of us,i miss to trough all the things together like we used before,i miss to spend time with you like how we used to spent before,i miss to talking with you on the phone in the late night,i miss to kiss your lips like we like to make it before eachtime we met,i miss the moment which we shared our problems about HIM/HER together,i miss our memories which means a loaddss to me,i miss your hug which makes me feel like a hundred years hadn't see you,i miss hold your hand while walking in the street whenever we're going out together.I really give a damm about that seriously,there's something wrong in our friendship which i try to find out what it is!! I really want to fix it no matter what, i love and too loving our friendship and YOU!! I don't want anythg distrupted our relation that been tied tightly before..


 But now,all seems changed and i don't know why,but what i felt is....I'm loosing you ittention which i need the most and always..Last time we met on 13th August(saturday) when we having breakfasting gathering with others,i felt like we're just know each other by that time,which AWKWARD moment has arise that time..I really felt like we never know each other!! But so you know that,i've being speechless and surprised like i wanna cry because you gave me something that i've been dreaming fr to get it from you :) it's really beautifull and i can't stop admiring the bracelet..It just made me cry when i touch it ^^ ..


BTW,I really hope that the SNOW GLOBE still with you..I'm still waiting fr us.. I hope this year vacation give us more time to spend and having full fun there like we used before..I LOVE OUR RELATION SO MUCH,this is not the end...I'll fight and do whatever it takes to hold you in my life and to hold our relationship..we've made a lots a promise..and i'm not frgtting itand so do you i hope..and we're goana fullfil it when the time has arrive..

I just don't want you to leave me alone..you are my best ever ELLE ...
We are friends and I do like to pass the day with you in serious and inconsequential chatter. I wouldn't mind washing up beside you, dusting beside you, reading the back half of the paper while you read the front. We are friends and I would miss you, do miss you and think of you very often.
I MISS YOU SO MUCH xxxxxxxxDDDDDDDD xxxxxxOOXO

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

There Is Always Hope

There is always hope. Even in times in which we feel that we will never arise from being down in such a horrible way. There is always hope. When you feel as if you have gone as far as you can go, and all forward progress is halted. There is always hope. When you have tried to get a loved one to see that what they are doing is not only hurting themselves but is hurting everyone around them. There is always hope.

They said that America would never be integrated, and that racism will always live but, there is always hope. People might tell you that because of your disabilities and because of how much money you don't have that you can't achieve your goals, and that you shouldn't follow your dreams. But, there is always hope! Never stop believing in yourself, and never stop believing that things can be better, stay positive, and stay hopeful

Monday, August 1, 2011

Myportfolio shoot


It was my 1st portfolio that has been created under http://www.deballz.com ...you guys can check out myprofile details at http://www.deballz.com/gate/main.php?modules=model_update


Start with the casual dress



Next get change to Dresses








For more information can check me out or contct me.thank you

Sunday, April 3, 2011

made~~~~~~


Before, my fear was being vulnerable. The ability of another human being to possibly tear apart your insides at any moment was enough to keep me running. He, however, made my insides come alive, my smile become permanent, laughter more frequent. He took away my fear and gave me hope. But more importantly, for the first time in my life, instead of wanting to run, he gave me a reason to stay.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

                                    A  FOOL..

             I'm sitting all alone in myroom and once again i'm thinking of my life..
My past is passing me by see a lot of pain , a lot of tears...That's how i remember it..
There were a lot of days that i could only cry...
My hope was faded away..I wanted to say goodbye to everything..
Now i'm laughing and feeling fine..Sometimes i still cry,inside and outside..
But,thats different then in the past..I just wanted to say goodbye to everything...
Damn.....What was i a fool??cause if i really said goodbye i had never felt this lovely feeling deep inside....
It's a great feeling called LOVE..
And i'm so thankful for finding her/him..It's making me stronger day after day..
There was a time that i wanted to say goodbye,
Now,I want to live myown life ever.
FUCK UP :)

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

('_____________________')

               WHO AM I ??


       The day i were born,i began a learning process that will continue for the rest of my life.
I were , from the beginning ,molded by my surroundings,parents,relatives,playmates,by all the general attitudes,ideas,and beliefs i came in contact with.. Each new year of life added to my past,changing the way i viewed  every new day, influencing how i reacted to everything from the simplest daily routines to complex events touching me,my family , and the world i lived in..




       As i grew older, i interacted with people from different backgrounds with differing ideas about life..Faced with new ideas , i may have defended my beliefs, or i may have completely abandoned my past. However,like most people,i probably belong to that vast river of humanity which lives each moment in the easiest,most pleasant way possible.If so,i were and a more or less able to blend ideas,feelings,philosophies,desires,and realities to justify what you want to do.




    Along with the majority of people,i were and are good at sending questions and ideas about the meaning of life and death, as well as thoughts and feelings about what is good and right,deep into the cloudy regions of my mind. Wether we realize it or not,most of us are voluntary prisoners of our minds,unwilling to question who we are and what we belive,happy to simply roll along trough life.Most of us will live from birth to death in a world we have fashioned from our past to suit our present.Few of us will ever stand free from our present beliefs and daily lives to ask what is live about??Who am i ?? What should i do?? What will i do?? If there is meaning to life,and a reason for living,these questions must be answered.. 




  If there is a true meaning to life,nothing that i do,say,or think will change that truth.What good is it to live my life believing what am i doing is right if i beliefs  are false and what am i doing is wrong?It is an understanding of life that we seek,a search for something in life worth living for.
  If you are to find  the meaning of life you must be willing to recognize it if and when you see it.To do so requires you to open your mind and accept whatever you discover,even if it is totally opposite to your experiences,beliefs and wishes.Since our discussion deals with the purpose of life,if what we are saying is true,your willingness to understand is a willingness to grasp the very reason for your living.If the answers you find are different from those you have molded for yourself,you must decide wether to continue on the path you are on,or go another way on a new path toward a new destination.




** THE MORE I LIVE MY LIFE , I'M GETTING MORE DISTRESSED   !! **

Monday, February 14, 2011

TRIPLE MALAYA IN CONCERT

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TRIPLE MALAYA IN CONCERT
5 MARCH 2011
9 P.M TILL MIDNIGHT
TICKET : RM50
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VENUE : DATARAN MASYARAKAT GEMENCHEH,TAMPIN NEGERI 9


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Saturday, February 12, 2011

Friday, February 11, 2011

Lake And Snadders..

         penang oh penang.............


AHHHHHHHHH....aku nak pergiiiiii Penanggggggg....wanna attend  Event Apit......dh lma dh plan..dh compom dh pun!!!duhaii...last2..xdapek,xkesampaian sb......pasal Press Conference Tripple Malaya In Concert ahh ni!!!!Lagi best kalau pergi Penang woooo.....Aku nk pergiiiii..ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...


ticket train aku pon dh bg kt parokkkk...pehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..mmg dh lmbt lahh kalau nk pegii!!!!!aahhhhhhh FUCKKK............

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Elle..

                    
I'm so so so sorrryyy mybeloved Elle...All The Best Dalilah :)








                                Elle,aku minta maaf sangat2 terpaksa cancel last2 minute..seriously ini xdirancang...something difficult for me to decide is happen to me..I've try so hard elle just for you but things still the same..i can do nothing...aku xsangka bende jadi mcm ni..I want so bad ada dgn kau kat sana and give you a full support..tp niat aku xkesampaian..                                                                                                          

ya allah elle...tuhan je tahu elle mcm mana aku sedih nangis skrg ni...bersalahnya rasa aku skrg ni..rasa nk jerit tp xboleh...aku harap kau faham elle..aku akn tebus balik ni untuk kau...aku betul2 minta maaf..Aku tahu kau kuat boleh buat semua 2..Kau jgn lupa bawak Inhaler kau k,seblm nk perform minum air suam bnyk2..please make sure that you are in a good condition on that time Elle,take a deep breath syg..I'm sure it'll be going just fine..Aku doa untuk kau ok..Nanti balik bglah aku tgok video2 and gamba2 kau kat sana k..jangn lupa..aku nk tgok..ok elle..apapun jadi aku ttp ingat kau.aku sayang kau Elle..This time mmg aku xdapat pergi..tpi next time,i'll make sure i'll go no matter what just to be with you Elle....Tolong ingat pesan2 aku Elle k..Jaga diri elok2 and behave yourself kt sna k..and may you have save long journey baby <3 <3 <3



Sunday, February 6, 2011

      i love this episode <3 ....... what a cool la kalau teacher aku bagi task macam Sana & Tae dapat.....ekekekekekekekekee XDD




To be continue...

Murder Love Part 3

         FINAL PART :


END.

Can I Have this "SEPATU" ????

             OMG!!! SERIOUSLY I ADORE THIS SHOES...WAWAWAWAWA......SAYA MAHU LAAA ,MAHUU!!!








The pattern......can you guys see it????Nice isn't it...wohoooo...










can someone buy this for me??hahahahha..sapo la yg nk bolikan eden kasut gini haa kalau bukan mak aku!!haahahahha..yahh maybe it's old pattern but who cares.i like this kinda of shoes and i do really wanna have this shoes!!!!!uwaaaaaaaaawwww...Wanna dispute???Go ahead hahahahhahhhahahhaha

Murder Love Part 2

Friday, February 4, 2011

how sweet.....can such this story happen to me??please2 i wanna grab it if i can hahahahahahah...i like that XDD



to be continue.....wait it up :)

EMOTION!!!!




do you want me to throw that???do you want me to feeling so??is it???so where are you?
i've throw mine already,but you??still on you right.. enough for me to think about that..actualy.i don't want to waste mytime for thinking something that is not important for me to think!!! but i set something in my mind that never let someone hurt because of me!!but......i will let someone hurt me even i never ask them to do so..hahahah WTF of me!! i've never giving him any reason that unacceptable..but him?? nahh too much maa..sometimes i can tell you that you are an IDIOT.. sorry to say but i have to.. im not saying that i don't love you but, you have to know that im still young..there's lot more i want to reach in my life..would you give some reason for me to accept that..you make me waiting for you like im an idiot!!! NO !! i will not let you do that,i will not let anyone fool me around!!! FUCK UP for those who have any itention and so do you!!! but for your information,actualy i've put my hope on you!! i hope i can stay longer than other's with you..i've  throw my EMOTION slowly just because of you..but the things is,you're the one who SHOW OFF with your FUCKING DUMBY EMOTION !!

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Cover !!!!


i'm trying to make this song as mycover for fun.....but still in proccess...hahaahhahhahah...i'll try to make it the best but not the same..so wait up !!!!! (^.^)

What The Hell!!!!!!!!















suriously,this movie storyline is unpredictable and tight to ensure the authenticity...i felt chafe for watched this movie..but nasib baik RM8 je cz i'm watched it on Wednesday..hahahaahahaha...The 1st Paranormal Activity is more better than this for me i guess...sometimes i've been wondering either they just act or it trutly happens..but it's hard for me to figure out!!haha...rasa mcm nk tidoo pun ada gak tunggu the suspens part on this movie,walawayhh bosannn!!!The ending part was over confused laa...tiba2 je si kakak dy pulak yg killed both of them,haaa??i mean seriously..nahh gua betol2 xfaham..and i don't want to grab any chances to understand this movie..malasssssss..hahaha...menyesal aku xdengar ckp kwn aku nk tgok crita Khurafat...hahah sory Cha,Wany,Ryda hahaahha..so for those who have itention to watch this movie,tgok kt rumah jelaa beli CD..pirates more better..it's legal for this movie..hahahahaahahhaahhaahahahah..


P/S : Hey Movie,you are wasting my money!!!BULLSHIT!!!!hahahahaah

Saturday, January 29, 2011

The Peachy Perfume I Had

              


Anna Sui Perfume -5
ID # 43077   




This is myfirts peachy perfume eve...i adore it much..hahaha..i've never wield such this expensive perfume.thanks to mama aku lah kan sebab sudi spend this for me!!yihaaa..smells yg diproducekn oleh perfume ni sangat menyenang kn aku hahah mean it smells nice la kan..nak crita pasal harga kang scared that people would think i'm swank..hahaha..but that just for information la ya..this perfume cost RM205 with nice smells hahahahha XDD

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Shinning The Amor XD



Don't blame me if i Miss You,
Don't blame me if i keep thinking of You,
Don't blame me if i can't kick You out of mymind.
Don't blame me if i ask You out,
Don't blame me if i ask You for lunch,
Don't blame me if i Adore You,
Don't blame me if i ask You too much,
Don't blame me if i keep text You a message,
Don't blame me if i call You late night,
Don't blame me if i ask You to walk me around,
Don't blame me if i be jaelous on You,
Don't blame me if i Admire You,
Don't blame me if i take You as MyInspiration,
Don't blame me if i say I'll be wait for You,
Don't blame me if i talk to You too much,
Don't blame me if i seek for Your Attention,
Don't blame me if i don't want to loose You,
Don't blame me if i want You,
Don't blame me if i Hurt because of You,
Don't blame me if i Loss mymind because of You,
Don't blame me if i Write A Song about You for You,
Don't blame me if i ask You to meet me,
Don't blame me if i Keep Your Photo too many,
Don't blame me if i Cry about You,
Don't blame me if i always Bothering You,
Don't blame me if i keep talking about You,
Don't blame me if i say that You change me a Little,
Don't blame me if i Care about You too much,
Don't blame me if i Admire Your Smile,
BUT.....
PLEASE BLAME me if anything happens to You because of me,
PLEASE BLAME me if You Hate me so much,
By that time,
You can ask me "WHAT,WHY & HOW" i got those feels towards You!!!
Even You'd know a little about that.Because the Sign had been show clearly !!!