Jahat

Jar Of Hearts

Bigcitydreams

Dear God Cover by me :)

made~~~~~~

Before, my fear was being vulnerable. The ability of another human being to possibly tear apart your insides at any moment was enough to keep me running. He, however, made my insides come alive, my smile become permanent, laughter more frequent. He took away my fear and gave me hope. But more importantly, for the first time in my life, instead of wanting to run, he gave me a reason to stay.

                                    A  FOOL..

             I'm sitting all alone in myroom and once again i'm thinking of my life..
My past is passing me by see a lot of pain , a lot of tears...That's how i remember it..
There were a lot of days that i could only cry...
My hope was faded away..I wanted to say goodbye to everything..
Now i'm laughing and feeling fine..Sometimes i still cry,inside and outside..
But,thats different then in the past..I just wanted to say goodbye to everything...
Damn.....What was i a fool??cause if i really said goodbye i had never felt this lovely feeling deep inside....
It's a great feeling called LOVE..
And i'm so thankful for finding her/him..It's making me stronger day after day..
There was a time that i wanted to say goodbye,
Now,I want to live myown life ever.

FUCK UP :)

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               WHO AM I ??


       The day i were born,i began a learning process that will continue for the rest of my life.
I were , from the beginning ,molded by my surroundings,parents,relatives,playmates,by all the general attitudes,ideas,and beliefs i came in contact with.. Each new year of life added to my past,changing the way i viewed  every new day, influencing how i reacted to everything from the simplest daily routines to complex events touching me,my family , and the world i lived in..

       As i grew older, i interacted with people from different backgrounds with differing ideas about life..Faced with new ideas , i may have defended my beliefs, or i may have completely abandoned my past. However,like most people,i probably belong to that vast river of humanity which lives each moment in the easiest,most pleasant way possible.If so,i were and a more or less able to blend ideas,feelings,philosophies,desires,and realities to justify what you want to do.

    Along with the majority of people,i were and are good at sending questions and ideas about the meaning of life and death, as well as thoughts and feelings about what is good and right,deep into the cloudy regions of my mind. Wether we realize it or not,most of us are voluntary prisoners of our minds,unwilling to question who we are and what we belive,happy to simply roll along trough life.Most of us will live from birth to death in a world we have fashioned from our past to suit our present.Few of us will ever stand free from our present beliefs and daily lives to ask what is live about??Who am i ?? What should i do?? What will i do?? If there is meaning to life,and a reason for living,these questions must be answered.. 

  If there is a true meaning to life,nothing that i do,say,or think will change that truth.What good is it to live my life believing what am i doing is right if i beliefs  are false and what am i doing is wrong?It is an understanding of life that we seek,a search for something in life worth living for.
  If you are to find  the meaning of life you must be willing to recognize it if and when you see it.To do so requires you to open your mind and accept whatever you discover,even if it is totally opposite to your experiences,beliefs and wishes.Since our discussion deals with the purpose of life,if what we are saying is true,your willingness to understand is a willingness to grasp the very reason for your living.If the answers you find are different from those you have molded for yourself,you must decide wether to continue on the path you are on,or go another way on a new path toward a new destination.




** THE MORE I LIVE MY LIFE , I'M GETTING MORE DISTRESSED   !! **