Sunday, August 28, 2011

The LOVE Letter

  I thought you're not receive my letter i don't get any feedback from you.. I thought the postman have sent the letter to the wrong adresses..That is what makes me worry to think's been a week i've lost you.I don't know what,where and why!!! Today, i've try to reach you, and you've answer my call, thats good enough fr me.. but sorry.. i put it down cz i'm scared i'll be cryn' when i'm talking to you..sorry.. 

  And about 20minutes ago i guess, he updated something which makes me feel relieve and glad.. Well at least he feel somethg than none aite... It's hard to make a decision being with you.. cz you are someone who's hard to predict that i can't do or act somethg based on lust or emotion.. I'm still waiting as long i'm using my mind to think positively.. I trust you,i trust you well.. I'm sure you are not did somethg bad behind me.. MARK my words Bienjie.. I TRUST YOU sayang .. I LOVE YOU.. 


Friday, August 26, 2011


   Lately i've been thinking about what i can do.. I've been stressing to fall back in love with you.. I'm so sorry that i couldn't follow through..but i can't go on this way,i've gotta stop it babe!!You've been wonderfull in all that you can be..but it hurts me when you say that you understand me..So believe me, i'm sorry..I am sorry >.<

  I wanted you to be there when i fall,I wanted you to see me through it all,I wanted you to be the one i love,I wanted you to hold me in my sleep,I wanted you to show me what i need,I wanted you to know how down deep i wanted you..
I've been pushing hard to open up the door trying to take us back to where we were before..but i'm done! I just can't do this we can't be mended, so let's stop this pretending now.We've been walking around in circles for some time,and i think we should head for the finish line..So believe me, I,I am sorry..I'm sorry.

I'm sorry baby,but i...i gotta pack up and leave!... But i...i'll always remember how we came closed to being how i wanted to be..I wanted you baby..i wanted you...

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Where The Hell You Gone??

I don't know where the hell he gone..Me text and tryin' to reach him since 20 August 2011 till today,but still no answer..How can i stay calm?? I miss you so much.. I'm still and keep waiting fr your call and text.. Sometimes i think i am a bad companion to be with.. You know how lonely i am without you.. Whenever i'm going out , i saw a boy and a girl were sitting next together,they laughing,they smiling to each other,they were kiss on cheek.. DAMM , i got jealous seriously jealous.. I've been thinking when i can have all that.. Yah maybe not fr now cz i'm still young and i don't give a damm!!! But you, i don't think you are tryin' to love me well..and you are not tryin' to gave me your love.. But i don't care cz i know my heart is addicted to you and i'll be waitg and patient of what we've been trough.. You're gone along with my bestfriend and my friend...Where are you?Where are you? I think i should let you go..

She's Wonderfull

  I thank her for accept me for who i am..For always give me strenght to live up my life, advicing me without met BORE, She kept telling me for never give up ,never surrender.. Well ,i think she's the best teacher... Everything that happens in her life effects me too which its teach me how to live up mylife in the future with new people and how to manage a relationship... The way she think, i can absolutely  absorb... Well some people would think bad about her , but that is their right but also it was a mistake for did that..because they are judging by looking appearance which is not the best way.. And i'm glad that i can get to know how she is and her heart well :)

These some from her for me :))

She makes me smile :)

Thank you Jaja <3<3
I can no other answer make,but...

Monday, August 22, 2011

This is LIFE.

Life defines in Metabolism,
In reproduction,
we make our miniature selves,
our look alike
In the power of adaptation,
like what is in now,
What is fashionable,
how I blend with all of you
How I mimic you,
how I become a clown to you,

Life in being nice
This is my life A short and a merry one
This my life In the middle of my own life
To life,
a life,
in the hope of discovering the meaning of my life,
My speech my poetry
Come to life with me
To the life,
for the life of one like me,
Not taking this life in my own hands,
To life,
this is life
As big as life
as large as life is large
In resiliency,
in elasticity
Animations, cartooning, animate,
I vivify
I vilify
I quicken
I liken
The life force in my life’s functions
Drawn from life
to life drawn
Dream to life a life full of dreams
This liveliness, this sparkle
This effervescence of life,
this bubbling life like wine
This sprightliness like soft
Drink like energy drinks
This verve,
this vigor
this vivacity
Of life to life as big as life
My life
This is my life
This me I am life
I am energy
i am in this poem trying to run
away from everything in my life,
running in life
to life and life,
because of life,
for life. 

hehee..For Fun

Thursday, August 18, 2011

This is the best VD i've ever watch :)


Just stay strong

persevering we must remember that anyone can give up when faced with hardship, that is the easiest way out of any situation. Life is full of Staying strong is one of the hardest things we must do in life. When we are adversity and challenges; they are the part of the journey towards our dreams that shape us into who we are. Don't be overcome by the thought of not being able to conquer the obstacles in your path and just turn around. 

You must overcome these obstacles for doing so will give you strength, and will only add to your bank of courage and confidence for future endeavors. Just stay strong! Never let anything deter you from the path that you know in your heart is the path that you should be taking, but instead embrace the idea of a challenge or obstacle in your way that you must overcome because the benefits of overcoming what is in your way are far greater than the benefits of just giving up!

Tuesday, August 16, 2011


3MONTHS(been used)


Monday, August 15, 2011

Feelings Fade And People Change

Little do we realize when we are in the moments that we cherish deeply that the people we are sharing these great moments with might not be around us for the rest of our lives. It is in our nature to be resistant to change and to want things to stay the same. It is too bad that change is inevitable, and sometimes the feelings that we might have felt for someone or the feelings they might have felt for us may go away. 

And sometimes the people who we may think will be in our lives forever become distant memories of our past. Do not fret. Feelings fading, and people changing is a part of life, and if you are growing as a person, not everyone will grow with you. It is important not to forget your past, learn from it, and use this wisdom to choose the people who will surround you in the future!

What is happening to US??

  I miss the old of us,i miss to trough all the things together like we used before,i miss to spend time with you like how we used to spent before,i miss to talking with you on the phone in the late night,i miss to kiss your lips like we like to make it before eachtime we met,i miss the moment which we shared our problems about HIM/HER together,i miss our memories which means a loaddss to me,i miss your hug which makes me feel like a hundred years hadn't see you,i miss hold your hand while walking in the street whenever we're going out together.I really give a damm about that seriously,there's something wrong in our friendship which i try to find out what it is!! I really want to fix it no matter what, i love and too loving our friendship and YOU!! I don't want anythg distrupted our relation that been tied tightly before..

 But now,all seems changed and i don't know why,but what i felt is....I'm loosing you ittention which i need the most and always..Last time we met on 13th August(saturday) when we having breakfasting gathering with others,i felt like we're just know each other by that time,which AWKWARD moment has arise that time..I really felt like we never know each other!! But so you know that,i've being speechless and surprised like i wanna cry because you gave me something that i've been dreaming fr to get it from you :) it's really beautifull and i can't stop admiring the bracelet..It just made me cry when i touch it ^^ ..

BTW,I really hope that the SNOW GLOBE still with you..I'm still waiting fr us.. I hope this year vacation give us more time to spend and having full fun there like we used before..I LOVE OUR RELATION SO MUCH,this is not the end...I'll fight and do whatever it takes to hold you in my life and to hold our relationship..we've made a lots a promise..and i'm not frgtting itand so do you i hope..and we're goana fullfil it when the time has arrive..

I just don't want you to leave me are my best ever ELLE ...
We are friends and I do like to pass the day with you in serious and inconsequential chatter. I wouldn't mind washing up beside you, dusting beside you, reading the back half of the paper while you read the front. We are friends and I would miss you, do miss you and think of you very often.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

There Is Always Hope

There is always hope. Even in times in which we feel that we will never arise from being down in such a horrible way. There is always hope. When you feel as if you have gone as far as you can go, and all forward progress is halted. There is always hope. When you have tried to get a loved one to see that what they are doing is not only hurting themselves but is hurting everyone around them. There is always hope.

They said that America would never be integrated, and that racism will always live but, there is always hope. People might tell you that because of your disabilities and because of how much money you don't have that you can't achieve your goals, and that you shouldn't follow your dreams. But, there is always hope! Never stop believing in yourself, and never stop believing that things can be better, stay positive, and stay hopeful

Monday, August 1, 2011

Myportfolio shoot

It was my 1st portfolio that has been created under guys can check out myprofile details at

Start with the casual dress

Next get change to Dresses

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